Thursday, April 21, 2005

me me me, it's always about me (this post isn't really worth reading. trust me)

I’m getting old, and I don’t like it. Not because I worry about the numbers… I don’t look my age, I certainly don’t act my age, but there are certain things that I cannot deny. I have always been active… I played soccer for six years, tennis all through high school and most of college, and I’ll play anything else, anywhere, any time. I’m not going to lie to you, I am very competitive, and I will push my body until it breaks and then I’ll push some more. Until recently, this had never been a problem for me. Then last week, while playing slow pitch, co-ed softball, I pulled my hamstring. This has never happened to me before. In fact, in spite of all the amazingly stupid things I’ve done in my life, (way too many to list, but lets just say the majority of those things would fall under the category of “reckless abandon”) I’ve never injured myself enough to prevent me from going out and playing. Ok, so the hamstring thing didn’t stop me either, but it hurt pretty bad, and I don’t like it. I pulled it for the first time last week in the first inning, but I finished the game. Over the following week, it started to feel better right away and I had almost forgotten about it, but then in the first inning of tonight’s game, I did it again. I finished the game again, but it hurt like hell. Normally I wouldn’t care, I’d take another week and hope I’d be better for next weeks game. But this week is different, this weekend the boys will be playing flag football… and I don’t miss games.

It really needs to be mentioned here that I am an idiot. I know I usually go out of my way to point that out as often as possible, but you really need to keep this in mind at all times.

I’m going to play on Saturday, because I can’t not try. See, I’m using double negatives now, because that’s how important it is for me to play, it messes with my grammar.

I can play, and possibly sacrifice my body, but to not play, that would sacrifice my heart, and that is something I will not do.

Physical well-being be damned. Eventually, I’ll be at a point where I can’t do any of this stuff anymore, so I think I should make every attempt to take advantage while I can.

11 comments:

jazz said...

didn't read the post since you had already told me it wasn't worth reading, but i have to ask...what's with all that html junk that's always in between your paragraph breaks? its ugly and kind of distracting. can you get rid of it?

it looks like this: [!--[if !supportEmptyParas]--] [!--[endif]--]

annoying! do something!

cadiz12 said...

just try not to think about it, jon.

it's damn depressing. i used to be able to do back flips and now my body hurts after an afternoon of running around after little kids.

but really, stretch a little. no use in completely immobilizing yourself by not accepting the facts and taking care of your body. you'll just be even more miserable.

yeah, what's up with the html?

Jon said...

let me ask you guys this... What web browser are you using? IE? I'm all about Firefox... and I don't have those... I see them when I'm here at work using the dreaded IE... I'll look into it.

Jon said...

Ok, I think I fixed it… It shouldn’t be a problem in the future, but I still recommend Firefox. I know it’s hard to get away from the Microsoft machine, but sometimes change is a good thing. I still have to use IE every once in awhile because certain websites will require it, but most of the time, it’s all Firefox.

Jon said...

But just for the sake of argument, lets say I chose to put [!--[if !supportEmptyParas]--] [!--[endif]--] in there as an artistic choice. What if I said I did it on the recommendation of my late grandmother, would you really want me to go against a promise I made to my Nana on her deathbed? I mean, who the hell do you think you are? Just coming in here and bossing me around like you own the place? Are you trying to pick a fight? I will fight you. I will fight you right now!!!

Nah, those things were annoying as hell… I wish someone had said something sooner…

jazz said...

hahahahh! well you're right, they're gone. dude, i'll always say something. i'm a good friend like that. i'll tell you when you've got food on your teeth or have your eyeshadow on wrong, or when the shoes you're wearing...are just bad. i'm that girl.

cadiz12 said...

it's always good to have one of those girls in your corner, jon.
the truth sometimes stings, but wouldn't you rather hear it from a friend who will love you anyway than be laughed at by some people in the street?

i'll have to look into this whole firefox thing.

Jon said...

Cool, I need that. Nobody ever tells me when my eyeshadow is all F&$%ed up and I wind up looking like a complete tool most of the time. I'm really not that fragile, just tell me and I'll fix it. Ignore the tears that rain down from my eyes, that's just how I am... I have hyper active tear ducts... and the whimpering... uh... that's totally asthma related, so it's a medical condition. Just get off my back already! Gosh!

jazz said...
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jazz said...

oh, also, i had to open up and use explorer (westlaw and lexis aren't supported by firefox or something, neither site would come up with it), so did opening up explorer maybe cause the "wipe out" of all the explorer transfers on firefox?

Jon said...

Olivia,
I definitely take my health for granted. And I am ashamed of that. This is the first time ever that I’ve had to contemplate not participating in a sport due to injury. It is quite possibly the most helpless I’ve ever felt. I do not like it. And I plan on having my mid-life crisis sometime in my 80’s, so I hope to live well past 119. We’ll see just how far I can take this no drugs/alcohol/caffeine clean living thing. I may have blown it already though… I’ve been drunk twice in my life now, but the last time was over two years ago…